Wrong Goal???

Getting up as late as possible(7 to be precise). getting ready in a jiffy…leaving to work by 7:45. At work…opening the wonderfull mozilla firefox with hazaar tabs in it(starting from gmail,yahoomail,hotmail to orkut, cricinfo, rediff, google news and various other blog sites). Hoping there is someone out there who wants to talk about something or the other(hopefully now). With this hope...refreshing each of those tabs every other min. imagining a jackpot everytime a new blog post is encountered. Imagining a double-jackpot when the boss comes up and says..."hey kripa...can u pls do this for me?.....".Coming back to the cube and looking at the same hazaar tabs once again.
Lookin @ the clock as it inches its way towards 12 noon. Lunch time! wats for lunch? Wow! yesterday's left over from dinner. yummmmy...cant wait to have it(I wish!). Done with lunch...now what? Back to the hazaar tabs.Any new mails? Nope. What about the clock…has the time changed since the last minute? Nope. Did someone mail me while I was busy looking @ the clock? Nope. Can't any of these answers be a yes???

Ok…here comes 5’o Clock. Time to go home…yoohooo! While driving wondering...’wat the hell am I looking fwd to after reaching that lonely-empty apartment?’ Notin. Wen it strikes 7, cooking a 'not-too-bad' meal. Feeding myself to that boring dinner. pack the rest for tomorrow. Lying down on the sleeping bag with my evening companion(wat else? my laptop).
'is it sleep time yet?'
'nope not till it strikes 1:00 am'
'so darling how shall we spent our time till then?'
'I have this amazing browser you might wanna have a look @...mozilla firefox'
'yah...watever'

Well…atleast there are saturdays n sundays to relax. Relax…huh? Only if we could consider spending the whole two days in front of mozilla firefox as relaxing. Either ways…relax after doing what? What back breaking, brain storming work did I do in that 40 hours of the week to RELAX????

Cant believe I wasted 20 odd yrs of my life for attaining this GOAL(getting into a nice job). I still have a long way to completely attain it, but already it all seems a waste of time(24 yrs to be precise).

I was never supposed to be a loner…but now I have managed to.
I was never supposed to complain like this...but now I have managed to.
I was never supposed to be unlucky...but I have proven that wrong too.
I was never supposed to be this pessimistic...but no I have managed that too.
I want to change all this…soon I will too.
You were never supposed to read this far...but you have managed to.
if I were to say you 'wud never comment here'...would you prove me wrong there too?